mE.

2012-01-01T20:30:00.002+08:00

Its been far, far too long since I posted here, but yeah. Since many readers have fled and this might as well be a desert, I shall gladly use this space for some soul searching and emotions pouring.

I have absolutely no idea what to do with you. Ive been tripping all over the place ever sine this thing between us started and for too many times, Ive felt like a little kid. You and your world of wisdom scares me at times and I find my stuttering to keep up. Here I am trying to figure out what my future holds and there you are, with your future planned out perfectly. While Im still stressing out on the minute things, you have already stomped forward towards better things. Too often I feel like Im begging for things to be less terrifying and trying to figure out what meaning lies behind your fanciful limericks. Cowaring with the new infomations I receive each day and wondering what all these really holds for us, I ponder about the likelihood of ' us' even existing. Saying it feels funny, like it doesnt belong. And yet, while these all sounds like Im giving up, theres this huge part of me that wants more. Wants to make it right. It does scare me to know that you are only willing to give, if I am. And that is also the samethings that makes me want to give. Im confused, I am. If I wasnt, I wouldnt be here.

I just wish, for maybe 1 moment, to be able to see whats ticking inside of you. A large part of me believes that will help.

love, the elven one.

2011-08-27T14:06:00.003+08:00

Contemplating on the order of the things on my want list. schwing schwing's harness, eating zombie's blazer thingy, free people's sunglasses are just one of the few. Not to mention saving up for the Hossan leong show which ive yet to buy tix. damn.

2011-06-15T17:09:00.002+08:00

Im really really glad that the holidays are here. This time, it's a real holiday. No books, no assignment, no worries. :) Having worked so hard for it, painting for 11 hours a day, researching for hours, having presentations that seemed as if I was going to cry and lastly, falling so sick and feeling insecure, IM FINALLY GETTING A BREAK.

To top it off, Im going to thailand on friday and Im so excited. Im gonna do up a shopping list!! :))

YAY.

love, px

2011-05-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

2011-05-15T22:44:00.001+08:00

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2011-05-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

totally over the moon when I saw it. :))))))

2011-05-09T11:14:00.000+08:00

5k run which I only ran 2k. :D

Oh, and Utt is too hot!

2011-05-06T01:05:00.001+08:00

2011-05-03T22:02:00.001+08:00

New words up my wall.

Words I live by whenever worries about the future plague me.

2011-04-30T15:59:00.001+08:00

Best when you're feeling so sick and just needed something warm and nice. You know what? Who would eat maggi when they can have instant ramen?

2011-04-28T08:43:00.003+08:00

Im starting my 365 shots a year project again.

Do check out this site often to follow on this project. Meanwhile, clicking on the ads will be helpful!

2011-03-18T22:51:00.006+08:00

After 4 years of disliking my class to a great extent, I thank god earnestly for blessing me with a class that I look forward to attending classes with. Of course, lesson learnt in secondary school has taught me to tolerate and hold my tongue before setting the gates of hell wide open for criticism and hurt, however the company and the kind souls sure make all this tolerating much easier since there is little to tolerate in the first place.

Perhaps Asw's teacher was right, the best time of your life happens either in sec school or Jc, I disliked the time in Secondary school and so perhaps Jc life seems to be a hell lot better. Studying has not been part of my routine yet but I sure am going to make sure I include that in, I dont wanna be stuck in JC for another year even if I like it there. No point if my friends are moving on!

Crossing my finger that all these friendship wouldn't be broken!

2011-03-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

Today hasn't been the greatest day around. I'm beaten and exhausted but I'm not ready to give up. I'm so upset to be constantly compared to someone else when all Ive been trying to do to challenge myself to beat my personal best. I didn't do napfa today to beat other, I did it to challenge myself, to push myself more but all Ive got was comments such as " Oh, --- is better." "Go Higher/lower" etc.
Why? Why treat me so different from that long legged girl. In terms of scores and points, we were on the same par. In fact, if you were to look at overall, I was better. Full marks, what more are you asking for from me? Why am I still taken as the replacement when I did much better didn't boast, unlike certain individual who claimed that a particular station was their best but did badly. I shut my mouth and did my best. I'm not worse than them so why am I treated as if I am? I know I'm good at sports and Ive been doing my best to prove it. It seems now that it's still isn't enough for you. I'm upset and enervated and I'm really starting to see that there is no point in all this anymore.

My ankle hurts and what hurts more is knowing that it wasn't worth it. I didnt hurt myself on purpose but if it was an injury cause while playing for a team that well deserves it and treats me with respect, I would surely not feel like such a loser.

And you know what? It didn't help knowing that the boy i was falling head over heels for was 'attracted' to another girl from the team.

It has been an awful day but tomorrow will be better.

2011-01-21T20:38:00.002+08:00

I swear the most unthinkable things only happens to me. Yeah, only me.

Why?

Cause I actually sprained my hip. Yeah, Im not kidding you, i sprained my hip. Doing what? Well, I would like to know too. Could be due to the crunches I did out of a sudden or the 5 hours walk at orchard. It's ridiculous how painful it is and (no it's not funny) how awkward it is to massage it. Im currently recuperating at home although I did go out to pass Azura her notebook and then went to spend every single cent of it on GD&TOP's album. Super amazing I tell you.

Honestly speaking, Im dying to get out of the house but the medicine Im taking it making me woozy and my tummy feels like a acid pool. It must be affecting my brain because I find myself typing like a kid again.

ugh. this sucks.

2011-01-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

It seems as if ive been unable to speak/ type cohesively on my fashion blog. Perhaps Im not really accustomed to speaking about things I have yet. Typing as if I was trying to talk in point form is really irritating me and im sure its bound to take a toll on the readership but urgh! What can I do about it? Friends have told me to combine my personal blog with my fashion blog but I cant decide. If that (my fashion blog) was suppose to take me somewhere, dont you think that my mundane life wouldnt be of any use? Ranting, reflections and self depreciation takes place here while the ardent wish of dreams taking flight should be done there. Should there be a clear line? Or is this portal the only way I could actually act out the wish that I have? To take the fashion route straight and not go through the long and tedious route of going through a jc, a uni and finally going to take a course on fashion? Kymare has once said "Follow your intuition and don't think too much in the future, this only makes you worry". I told my mum this and my mum said " Oh, she must be very young.". Mummy knows my dreams, she supports me but she wants me to safe and have something to fall back on. Having parents that care so much, I wouldnt want to hurt them by going against their wishes of having a child in Jc. But I do wonder if this is gonna be affecting me. I dread JC life, I dread having to mug, I dread the fact that i would once again meet people who dont understand my dreams. I fear the competition and all in all, I fear what lies ahead.

2010-12-15T18:57:00.001+08:00

I dont know if you realised this, but 1000 ++ dollars could get my 10 pairs of steve madden.

Im very glad to know that his interest and ambition and far more important than mine.

2010-11-29T21:16:00.002+08:00

Hello.

The holidays have been pretty extreme currently, where my schedule will be fully packed at one moment and completely empty at another. Seeing one person too much at one time and too little at another. Nevertheless, im really enjoying myself although im gonna give myself a break tomorrow if isky is going out(Havent seen him in ages!). Hahaha, who would have guessed i needed a break from having fun huh?

Hoping the catch Rapunzel ang Easy A soon.

This holiday has been filled with loads of shopping actually. Got myself a vintage cut dress, a pair of boots, stockings, connector rings. More shopping in austrailia hopefully cause i havent got anymore money left.

what are you guys up to?

2010-11-21T15:58:00.003+08:00

Hello all!

My holiday plans have gracefully ended and i think it's time for me to start sending out invitations for new holiday plans! Movies, house crashing, flea marts, shoppings all sound uber fun, but the thought of the money i'll be spending is quite scary. Perhaps i should include job hunting as one of the things to do. gah. Any lobangs?

Anyway, many of you might have found out about my new blog at wordpress known as TheFashionAssassin (http://thefashionassassin.wordpress.com), do take a look there as it's really about helping me realise my dream. There will be outfit post, collages, inspiration boards. So yeah, perhaps it will even help you out during the i-have-nothing-to-wear-days.

And nope, im not closing down this blog! It's been with me since i was a horrible speller in primary 5! But the blogskin is definately gonna be changed.

till then, stick around and support me at both blogs!

love,
peixin

2010-11-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

I havent been around for so long, i didnt know blogger changed it's layout.

So, the O's is finally over and prom is like in 3 days? Everything is prepared so im totally chilled.

Watched The social network on friday. Other holiday plans havent been going on too well, with TP rawks plan cancelled, FLB flee missed and lower seletar cycling plans wasted due to the heavy rain. Ehk, nvm, went out with mummy today and bought boots. ((((((((((: Out with bestfriend tmr.

new plans for expansion.

expected launch date: 19th november.

stay tune!

2010-10-07T21:06:00.002+08:00

the beauty...

(leblogdebetty)

So.. what wrong with oversized clothes again?
lookbook.nu

As promised.

(I wasnt lying about patricia mok and addie chan!)

2010-10-04T22:36:00.007+08:00

Wanting to be a designer and everything, i always keep an keen eye out for what i deem really fashionable and stylish, so having given a chance to attend the Topman/Topshop We Are One Party at Ion was just perfect.

I must say, Topman has really lived up to their style. Infusing the latest trend while keeping it wearable is awesome. Be ready to see leather jackets, beanies, checkered shirts and boots for guys this autumn. Okay, perhaps not in sunny singapore, but Lookbook.nu instead. Though i must say, guys, you can always play it down a lil and add a touch of summer to this season's latest trend. Topman is currently focusing on Military, Grindstone and Comtemporary Punk. Although many would think jackets first when told these three style, i beg to differ! Why not a t-shirt with military details? Sounds comfortability chic to me.

^Comtemporary punk, my favorite of the three.

P.s. Totally diggin the checkered shirt with beanie look.

(Seems like the stripes hasnt died out yet!)

Topshop on the other hand played heavily with details and loads and loads of lace. One model wore a lace crop top with a lace skirt while wearing lace leggings. Think she would look like a fashion victim? Hell no. She was chic chic and chic. I must say, topshop really put in a lot of effort in the details. Im referring to the clothes by the way.

Layering dominated the entire runway and it was both prominent for topman and topshop and i must say, singaporeans should really do it too. Just choose thinner materials! Sheer materials are pretty common, just swop the camisole for something for surprising!

My favority outfit of the night. (There was so many to choose from, but i just couldnt forget this one.) I really like the floral lace legging that was seen on so many models. Seriously considering getting it, but my calfs are so huge, leggings and stockings just dont seem like a good idea! Although i must say it's prolly high time i get my long waited wedges!

Dark noveau is my favorite collection of all the collection Topshop has. The idea of layering black on black makes me flutter with excitement, not to mention that there are studs and boots too. Yummmmmmm.

(http://topshop.com/)

The whole set up of the party was really cool. It was in the lvl 8 carpark of ion orchard. Really stylish fans were provided and there were electronic fans in the carpark too. (you dont want everyone's make up to be melting!) Frolick, blackberry, coca cola zero, some beer company which i cant rmb and the coolest of all baicapture set up a booth there. Baicapture is something like neoprints but you get to dress up and you dont get to edit it. So watching all the fashionista grab props and pout to the camera was pretty darn cool. Seems like the pictures arent up on their website yet. I'll upload it once it's up!

I think i havent mention the soundtrack yet. Brit pop was playing and it really set the mood. It wasnt mainstream like kesha or katy perry which made it cooler.

Celebrities were at the party too and I saw Shaan and Ross, Patricia Mok (who was really very well dressed. ) and Andie Chan. My sis saw the muttons too! (Who then gave her a mutton sandich and cover her boobs with the fan provided.)

The party was really pretty awesome (even though i skipped the clubbing/partying part that had dj angmoh.) overall and i cant wait for my next runway show!

2010-09-30T23:37:00.002+08:00

Cheeks were sore from smiling, emotions were soaring, mind was overflowing.
Graduation was really alot about thinking back and reflecting on how the 4 lengthy years have given you strength and knowledge and changed you to who you are now.

Im not going to go in detail about all the nitty gritty things we did today, but I'd like to say that im very very proud of myself for getting a excellent conduct grade even though Marcus still thinks it means im very quiet in class. Im proud of myself for not going the wrong way and being influenced by undesirable characters and that ive stuck to my own principles and through falling and bumping, ive found friends who really bothers about how I feel instead of leaving me out whenever they thought they were better off without me. Im appreciative for the kindness and care friends have showered me and the sweet messages juniors have sent to express their wishes for my well being and encouragement. Im happy to know that they appreciated the help ive volunteered and very delighted to know that marcus actually still thinks of me as someone he respects.

The times ive spent in Riverside was really a emotional journey. Getting into relationships that I regret at this point, meeting a boy i thought was the one, falling out with friends and leaving them, meeting awesome friends that i truly hope i would never ever lose contact with, crying over class bullies and plotting revenge to have yiting aka oprah winfrey tell me to forgive and forget and doing amath papers after papers while Mrs Tan telling us to do more papers. Exhaustion was one of the main things that had made me want to just give up and pursue Fashion immediately, but true friends had reminded me again and again that it isnt as easy as i think it would be. Friendship and the love my family has showered me with kept me going and striving for the best. Im thankful and grateful and I wish from the bottom of my heart that nothing changes.

On the side note, Nabil Sapari, i love you so so much! You have no idea how
long that small meeting with you and marcus had made me go on smiling for. I
love you and I ever want to lost touch with you, you understand?!

Marcus low!
Although you are the most forgetful person ive met in my whole life, your
maturity and your sensibility has always made me forget that you are only 15
years old. Even though we sometimes dont disagree on the route you are taking
and often end up stop talking about it, i wanna tell you that you should never
ever give up!

Michelle!
Thank you for your sms. I never expected it. Although we started out on the
wrong foot, we definately got on way better afterwards. Thank you for all the
help you have given me and please take care!

Hazel!
You should really take care of yourself! Please dont stress yourself out
for next year SC and study really hard alrights! I was really touched when you
came looking for me that day btw.

Layping!
Gonna miss you girl. Please dont ever attempt to watch a scary movie ever
again cause missing sleep cause you're scared is not smart at all. Study hard
and make me proud alright!

2010-09-23T13:00:00.001+08:00

The only way self studying is going to work is if i lock my computer.

But hey.

then how do i check out what Big bang is up to?

oh yeah.
that wasnt one of the priorities.

2010-09-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

I am sick of school.

By wednesday, i felt my brain lock it self up and self consumed the key. On thursday with the mad 4 hours of maths, my brain fizzed up and died. You can pretty much imagine what happened on friday and saturday (YAH I KNOW RIGHT. I HAD TO DRAG MYSELF OUT OF BED AND TRY SO HARD NOT TO CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT 3 HOURS IN SCHOOL ON SATUDAY!)

im sick of school and i need to take a break from all of this.
Im so sick of school, i cant even drag myself to go and study or just complete my new pile of assignment. Is there even a cure for this?

2010-09-17T17:57:00.002+08:00

Anticipation.

2010-09-12T00:08:00.002+08:00

All the crazy things i do with you, talk to you about and the songs we listen to while we work our way uphill with you carrying two bags and me cycling us both.

2010-09-11T12:01:00.002+08:00

Besides struggling to finish my huge pile of homework and watching a lot of tv, this break has been pretty wonderful cause of that thailand trip. I guess it really allowed me to relax throughly and you know what? I was really happy there. I guess it was because i didnt have to think of o levels and all that, and my parents not starting a war was really helpful as well.

Despite not bring the memory card for the camera, we still took pictures with the polaroids. Pretty hilarious ones as well. Hahaha. Uh, we went to a bar on the first night because the bad traffic meant that we had a lot less time to do things since we finally arrived at the hotel at 9p.m. (the plane ride was around1 hour 45 minutes and the supposedly 30 min ride to the hotel became 2 hours due to bad traffic)

Booked a taxi for the second day to go to the floating market and Rose Garden and then went to Shiloh road. Slept a lot on the taxi cause we slept really late and woke really early. So we went back to the hotel early that day and went swimming. Swimming at hotels is always done with Pk cause we always end up travelling tgt with our parents when daddy goes to work and ask us to come along. After swimming we went to play with the punch bag that was beside the pool and it was pretty hilarious how i failed at boxing. We kinda got chased out of the gym afterwards cause my bros didnt have a shirt on while doing pull ups. Watched Kung Fu panda with my family and He's just not that into you and went to sleep early that night. Hahha, since we slept early, we got the bed while my elder bro got the bed stand (ehk, i dont know how to explain this!)

Stayed in the room for cookies and milk breakfast with Pk and then we went to the four face buddha and then went shopping. Their departmental stores are freaking huge and pricey, But we all got something anyways. Sis and I found the topshop, f21 and other store clearance sales and got a lil too excited. Went back to the hotel and went to manicure before heading to the airport.

i really really love thailand!

2010-08-26T17:49:00.002+08:00

icandoit icandoit icandoit icandoit.

Its easy to get demotivated with 2 periods of mrs tan and 9 questions of integration which you have to keep turning back to ask how to do.

60 days left.

i can do it.
Like Aizal said, Just Hang in There.

2010-08-22T23:02:00.001+08:00

2010-08-21T19:49:00.002+08:00

Check this out.
http://gummybearsbite.tumblr.com/

My sis's tumblr where every picture there is actually a original.

2010-08-18T18:17:00.003+08:00

My clothesssssssssss, ring and shoeeeeeeeeee has arrived! And I cant help being so excited and i want to open the f21 box! But ive gotta wait my pb to come home first.

Alright, so school has been a pain in the ass as usual and especially so since we are getting back our prelims results. (ya la ya la, before another a.h. asks, i failed my physics and amath by 2.5 marks each and passed the rest. Please stop bugging me.) Had my eng orals today and I had the audacity to say that I love air because we really cant survive without it when they asked what do you like about nature particularly. Well, i wasnt as stupid enough as to stop there and then even though i know you doubt it and went on to talk about the environment and how people are harming it. Asked Xinlei what he would have said afterwards and he told me I should have said about how i love photography and nature is a wonderful muse. Yes, i know what you're thinking.

On the brighter side, i did pretty awesome for my eng prelims, though slightly off from an A1. But that doesnt matter right, since O levels is the big boss and all that, but hey, show a little encouragement please.

Anyways, the teachers are all either disappointed and in rage due to the horrendous results we have presented again. Ugh, the nagging is really getting into me but im really putting them to the better side that motivates me. Ive really got to continue doing all that math and adding on to it though.

But hey, you know what? I can do this. Perhaps with a little more hardwork, that 7 points doesnt seem so far away.

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2010-08-12T20:17:00.000+08:00

2010-08-12T18:34:00.002+08:00

Like what i wrote on facebook, i think i have had the best 6 days break ever. Yeah, i know its the calm before the storm where we get our terrible results tmr in school, but it was the best calm before the storm eh!

Spent friday with my the nball girls watching salt which i really really dislike. Dont even get me started on why i disliked it. The rest of the day was pretty funny-- we laughed over everything!

Saturday was awesomeeeeeeeeee. Went out with Mummy, we have been looking forward to it since forever and you know what? It totally lived up to expectations. Bought 2 tee, 1 ring, 1 headband and 1 mega awesome bag from topshop. Well, i bought a nail polish from topshop, but lets not go into the story of what happened to it. We came back early but you know what? It was still one of the best time spent with mummy. (:

Hung out with Isk and Iffah on tuesday while having the worse tummy cramp but you know what? The company of my longest known best friend and his super cool sis and icecream on hot waffles totally cured it. (: Rented a movie and watched it at his house, guess what? I fell asleep at the ending part and jolted up suddenly cause of the heart-skip-a-beat thing and nobody noticed. hahaha. played tekken and taught iffah how to do her online homework which was totally wrong. But you know what? Iffah talked to me more afterthat, so weird.

went out with sis ytd. Holland V for wendy's then to serene centre for mudpie, last to bishan junction 8 for ding tai fung. YES I KNOW RIGHT?! And it was pretty interesting cause at every place we went, we met her friend. So at Wendy's, we met this girl who im still secretly afraid of, then we went to Island cremery for MUDPIEEEEEEEEEEEE AND ICECREAMMMMMM with Hong Ngiap, her bf. Then we met Xuan (my tuition tcher who reads my blog) for ding tai fung and koi and then we went to watch Au revior Taipei at AMK hub. (Terrible movie if you were to ask me) and then we took the mrt home since kor took the car to go bugis while we were at j8. OH, and we saw xiaxue and kaykay while i was trying to persuade my dad to let us watch au revoir taipei on the phone.

you know what? As far as i have added a lot of awesome and etc in the paragraphs, the fun i had is still extremely understated. But, thats for me to rmb, isnt it?

i.need.to.improve.on.english.

2010-08-04T23:20:00.004+08:00

I want these.

Got these.

To match my previously bought black and white diamante bangles.

(Can you imagine this baby with rolled up skinnies, basic scoop neck top and a blazer? Or a black elastic band skirt with my favorited peppered Zara tee? Or perhaps my bandage skirt with the black tank?)

2010-08-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

I think the stress kinda built up and exploded in me while i was doing the fourth set of 40 mcq and getting the whole page wrong. Exasperated and enervated, i let out a scream of fustration. My brother came in and gave me a massage while reminding me again that i should really relax, all while i was trying hard to not kill myself over not being able to do the stupid mcqs.

Im trying, i really am. Im trying harder than i have ever in my life... so why isnt working out...?

2010-08-02T16:37:00.002+08:00

By the last half an hour of the amath paper, I was hungry, cold and fed up. Im fed up with how difficult the paper was, how bloody annoying those heels are AND IM FED UP THAT I STILL AINT DONE WITH THE DAMN PRELIMS.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

somebody take me shopping pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-07-28T14:07:00.002+08:00

All from Hob "I made it myself"

Email him at : hobabac@hotmail.com

2010-07-26T21:59:00.004+08:00

Between filled exercise books, prayers for a flood just enough to destroy the prelim papers, half hour naps that dragged a tad too long and smses to my best friend from across the street, i have completed my english paper and half of both Combined Humanities and Emath paper! So yeah, another 8 more days of hard core mugging and plenty of prayers and I think I will survive. Im really taking this better than I thought!

Okay, hopefully I dont end up thinking too much about the ways of life that I should really get my mind off like bestfriends and parents and I think I'll be fine.

Till then, thank you to the seniors who just dont let me stop thinking about prelims by ending every conversation with "Goodluck with the O's", "Happy Mugging" and "O LEVEL IS GOOD FOR YOU!". Perhaps I shouldnt have had done that to Aizal last year when I wrote all those cards, maybe I should just have written "Play plenty of football and screw those who dont let you off about o levels."

hahahaha.
life, it works in funny ways doesnt it?

p.s. to those who has been curious about how many watches I own, I currently have 18! Hahahaha. :D

2010-07-22T21:18:00.001+08:00

2010-07-20T18:11:00.003+08:00

What Ive been up to.
(This one's call Blimey Blo.)
Do me a favour and comment on it please. :D

I cant wait till o level ends and me and yiting starts collaborating.
Opps. too much information.
BUT...

ARE YOU EXCITED TOO?!

ahhh, need.to.focus.on.prelims!

2010-07-17T23:32:00.003+08:00

Went out for some me time today. Grabbed my stuff, took the bike and rode to tellytubby hill. With the wind in my hair and the happy thoughts in my head, I felt really good. Once i reached, i sat down and snapped photos. So yeah, i destressed and also had my little photo expedition. I was really satisfied until some stuff happened. But, im fine now.

Really excited about something right now but its probably not the best time to reveal it. Till I get more news, you will have to wait for it. (:

Oh yeah, facial on friday was really enlightening because meirong ah yi told me some stories about her life. Yeah, i was frightened, but it really help me forget about all the unhappiness from school. Its true, I shouldnt change because of the lousy enviroment, but I should try to change my lousy enviroment. Its hard work, but it will be worth it. So no, im not gonna be irresponsible and sit around. I'll still do what i need to and leave the rest to whoever is up there.

2010-07-15T18:31:00.003+08:00

Because it was the last straw on the camel's back.

The little thing that seemed harmless was just the exact thing that spark off all the unhappiness kept in one glass jar.

The unhappiness that came from papers, pe, duty rosters and a stupid stupid switch.

The unhappiness from self esteem, confidence, blemishes, weighing scales and being too hard on myself.

because.

I Had Enough.

yeah. why do i care? I could have tht position and sit at one corner like what somebody is doing, I could totally ignore the list of responsibilities and concentrate on making myself happy. I could be diao er lang dang de. but i aint because i felt that i was reponsible for at least some part of changing all these. But hey, guess what? None of you are worth any of the effort. None.of.you.

2010-07-12T17:56:00.002+08:00

Its another monday!

No idea if its because of the prelims that is coming so so soon or because school time has been shortened by that 30 minutes, but the curicumlum time minus focus study time seems to go by so fast! Just take phyics for example, we went in, i pestered Mr low to let me go to the washroom, he didnt allow, copied quickly, bargained again, went to wash room, come back, ask 3 questions and then that 45 minutes was up! I swear I could almost hear the time Zoom past! So annoying since we still have one chapter to cover and we havent started on it yet. AND WE HAVENT STARTED REVISION FOR PHYSICS. Oh man, i could die already.

Anyways, as you all know.... Im terrible with stress. My parents are getting so worried about me and all. But, ive decided to be less stress and so.. during the weekends, I went over to Asw's house which is in Sengkang and studied. Well, taught her POA and all that. When I came home, I watched TV, a lot a lot of TV. Then on Sunday, after studying abit, I made Brownies! Which was awesome even though they look like I scrapped them off the plate. (Which i did, but thats another story). And then I did Emath and POA concept game. Taught my brother trading profit and loss which was a very good way to revise and then went to bed hoping my dad's screams for GOAL will wake me up (which didnt) and I was well rested for school.

before I know it, it will be friday and i'll be only left with less than 10 days to prelims. I just hope i wouldnt die before it comes!

2010-07-11T19:29:00.003+08:00

I need to breathe, relax and stop being so jittery.

This whole week went by so quickly, flag raising, mock paperssssss, recess, mock paperssss, spa skill 3 practice, nag nag nag, break, focus, more mock papers. end school.

Repeat steps 1 - 10 four times

Plot activities done against time and state the scale of hecticness of a average sec 4 student life. Conclude.

My brain is currently going through a full blown panic attack and i can totally hear my heart beating beyond a normal heart beat rate. My hands are moving so fast and somewhere in my head its going JENG JENG JENG JENG JENG. I think im going crazy soon.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

WHAT HAPPENED TO TELLING MYSELF NOT TO GO CRAZY?!

2010-07-04T20:04:00.002+08:00

I am extremely grateful to two people. One of them is MeiRong Ah Yi, my dermatologist and the other is Hob, the guy from thailand who sells watches and other awesome cool stuff.

Im extremely grateful to Meirong Ah yi because she treats me as if im her own daughter. Although im just another customer who comes and go, she always care about me by asking me about school and telling my mum who good she thinks i am. Ive always known she treated me really well and today, she said something that made me feel really really warm and fuzzy inside.

My face has had a really bad breakout and has been really itchy ever since school started and I finally couldnt take it anymore today. I was supposed to go have a facial, but dad suddenly said he was bring us to fly kites and no wasnt to be taken as an answer. So, she told me to just go and get the gel from her so that she could see whats wrong as well. When I reached, she immediately dropped everything she was doing(She was attending to a customer) and she came and see how my face condition was.

Then, she asked me if it was because i changed anything in the regime, when we finally got to when it started and I said since school started, she asked if it was because Im too stressed out. I replied yes, since im still terribly overwhelmed with school and she looked at me and said: "Dont be stress! Try your best to relax, remember! I still love you!" I was really surprised, but I knew that she really really meant it. Now tell me, how many people do you know has a dermatologist that love them like their own daughter?

Next, is Hob. As you guys might remember, ive been talking about getting watches from Hob, well, it's been about a month or so now and Ive not received the watch because Stupid UPS lost the damn package and told us they could not find it as there were too many things.

And Hob found out only because he actually skipped work for a day to check it out because the Stupid UPS didnt have the guts to call him up. (fuck ups.) And so, Hob, being the best businessman to ever live, sent me a new package. I thought it would be the same watches, and when I opened the package ytd when it arrived, I was soooooo upset because it was watches that wasnt what I ordered. I cried. (ya, i cried over watches.) And then emailed him to say that it was the wrong order and bla bla bla, I'll send it back and Blablabla.

And today, he said that it was free and I didnt have to send it back and it was a different design so that I could have watches to wear while I wait for UPS to send the package. And guess what, I found out on facebook that these watches are his newest collection. I dont think I have to continue to elaborate why he is the nicest business man on earth. Just think about it, any other damn businessman would have told you to fuck yourself when you told them UPS didnt send you your package.

Now, go add Hob as a friend on facebook and buy a pretty watch for yourself (Click here.) while I make a gratitude card for my favorite thai businessman.

2010-07-03T13:59:00.002+08:00

So yes, you guys have been hearing about the pencil case and shoes for weeks but have never got to see the pencil case. So... here it is! :D

So.. Say hi to Curious Jane! :D

2010-06-30T21:02:00.003+08:00

Everybody, please say hi to Skateboard Joe and Blue Blip!

(Inspirations: DC shoes and other strange thoughts)

2010-06-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

Movie with nabil, marcus, hazel, layping and mich tmr.
im soooo excited.
but dont tell them :D

Anyways.
stayed at home a lot this week. \
Went shopping on Mon and finally bought my jeans. ((((((:
Went for dinner with lessaye and goh lulu on tuesday and it was awesome. Me and lessaye started talking as if we have never stopped talking. The three of us had so much to talk about and I really felt damnn good. :D
Toy story on Thursday. Awesome. :D

Then friday and saturday, i finally did the designer thing that ive been putting off.
pictures soon, anticipate it!

2010-06-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

A talk with my camp leader from p5 camp has enlightened me from the constant delimna ive been in on whether i should pursue fashion. My dad prep talks has never suceeded, he just keeps saying stuff that discourages me. My sis has been saying things like "its a dog eat dog world." therefore, ive always been thinking about it over and over again. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! Then, I talked to Ruyu who is currently pursuing Fashion in Laselle. And she told me what they do and stuff. And i was blown away.

Hello! In foundation, I studied art basic techniques and theories! I had 3d, 2d, drawing, grey matters, contemporary and contextual studies classes and some 5/6-week workshops like photography, google sketchup, moving images and sound (which is about videos and audios), modelling (clay sculpting), adobe photoshop and i...llustrator! and then we also had a specialism project (a project based on which specialism you are interested in, so for me that is fashion). and for that project, which i am still improving on now, is for the opening ceremony of the youth olympic games, which is quite fun :)

This.is.exactly.what.i.want.

All those sketching in my notebook, all those chasing of fashion blogs and feeling those fabrics in my hand. Telling my closest closest friends how magical i think fashion really is, has a reason. Because thats what i want to do.

Ive been so worried about whether i'll be good in it, whether i would make something out of it and then Ruyu said. "My sis told me, if you are good at something, you would have to go to school" and that enlightened me. It's because i dont know about it and im no good about it, which is why IM GOING TO LEARN! Yes. Im going to take up fashion and no flashy career name is going to change my mind.

First to hwa chong, then to lasalle.

2010-06-19T23:06:00.001+08:00

Karate kid was sooooooooo good.
I really really liked it.

and jaden smith? He is gonna be big.

2010-06-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

i need to be more useful.

2010-06-18T19:33:00.000+08:00

all the thoughts of running away.

2010-06-17T23:16:00.001+08:00

2010-06-16T19:32:00.004+08:00

2010-06-16T19:19:00.002+08:00

thank you god, for clearly defining the term "ungrateful bastards" by showing me real like examples.

2010-06-13T17:13:00.002+08:00

hey ho,

greatest events of the week has gotta be we-eat-maggie-mee wednesday. Had only one lesson in the day so we headed out to causeway to rent a dvd and then bought food and then came home with kausala to cook maggie mee with hotdog and fishball and watched dear john. Cooking 9 packets of maggie mee with two huge pots and with th company of the bestest friends = best experience ever. And the bantering = fun.

so anyway, headed out to wisma with syaripudding ytd for the 30 minutes, 30 dollar 'work'. Ate lunch in 10 minutes (that includes drinks, burger, onion rings and a tara turnover) and walk/ran to the mtging point. Waited until it was time and watched the flashmob before heading down to cineleisure where i saw gangyi but didnt say hi. Tried to find his ______ things, bought clothes, ate frolicks and then went out to see the yoyo thing where gang yi was on stage again. went to the mtging place again and waited for the second flashmob and then went to taka and wisma. Swop clothes with syariff and then talked to k7 before the third flashmob and im convinced that he is the coolest friend sibling ive ever known except asw you aint allowed to tell him. Went to ion, checked out volcom and convinced syariff that that is where he should shop at. Went back to causeway and then checked out prices for bbq. and then went home with syariff with sore sore legs.

lol. i havent blog like that for a while.

syariff. im so glad i went with you. thanks for being so so patient. :D and i know you were tired la.. dont pretend.

2010-06-09T19:12:00.001+08:00

ugh.

im so jealous.

i wanna go to hwachong!

and.

yes ma. i was looking forward to tmr until you threw that giant bomb at me.

2010-06-07T17:27:00.002+08:00

This week is Chemistry week, the next week is Physics week, then it's SS week, then Geog week, then amath week, then emath week then it will be prelims. eh wait. i thought its my holiday?

WHERE IS MY BREAK?!

ohwait. there isnt a break when you are 16 and you are about to take an exam that will decide your future, or instead, decide if you even have a future.

*whines*

2010-06-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

We had netball farewell yesterday. Waterbombs, flour in the face, pails of water being thrown at each other, and touching farewell speeches.

Farewell was simple, but it will be strongly eteched in my memories.

Everyone was so relaxed and happy and we were just having fun together, even cleaning up was fun cause it gave us ample opportunities to bond.

Being named motherly peixin was pretty funny but it made me realise what i am to you guys. Or at least to Michelle. Thanks girl.

And to my dearest graduating seniors, thank you! For being my teammates for the past 3 years and comforting me when i needed support. Thank you, for including me in every thing that you girls plan and for making sure im alright. The reminders on court to take care of myself and dont rush my passes are the things that are going to let me improve myself. Knowing you girls have been my greatest pleasure. It took us so long to become this close, but it's worth it. For now i know how to cherish friendships that took falls, blood, sweat to build.

Thank you girls and i love you.

2010-05-31T11:24:00.000+08:00

i would very much like to go shopping now.

2010-05-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

awwwww.

Ive finished all 16 ep of YAB! I was so addicted that You're Beautiful was all i could talk about for the 2 weeks that i was addicted!

2010-05-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

When we said we are going to study. we might have misled you.

total work done: chemistry homework and lil understanding of coordinate geometry and circles.

2010-05-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

Hello you.

Rcube was fun and the class really bonded lo! Took so damn long for us to bond! We all now gang up against ms sim which is quite fun. Oh, and me, the one who has no utter sense of direction actually led the class to the blocks! Which was pretty ridiculous and me and kc had some fun arguements on which way to go. Hahahaha, the class didnt have any comments at all cause they were super contented with just following their direction senseless vc. wahahahah. (other photos will be up on facebook once it decides to start cooperating.)

Went over to Serene's to study and i though it wasnt very productive, it was super relaxing. As in when i told her all the stuff that has been bothering me, and it was quite motivating to see her studying so hard because now, I KNOW I CANNOT AFFORD TO SLACK CAUSE THERE IS ANOTHER THOUSAND PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO IS WORKING HARD. HAHAHAHA.

No la, actually, seeing her report book scared the hell out of me.

But, i managed to learn some a math stuff that i didnt know and the most impt thing was i managed to lighten up. YES. that's the most important thing of all!

Ate Alameen for Dinner and it was good. Super filling, and the infomation i got about her over a million things were also very very satisfying since she keep robbing me of my secrets! hahahahah.

this is a very very brief post that probably only i understood.

ohyeah, daddy's bday today. ate dim sum, watched robin hood and ate steamboat and had a longlonglong family talk about the past present and the future. and since im so addicted to "you're beautiful", i just kept thinking about it the whole day.

2010-05-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

School past by very fast yet again. its so fast, you cannot afford to blink!

But, thats not what i logged in to talk about. Im here because... im really really stressed out. Well, the talks by Mrs Sng and Ms Lim and Mr chen and yada yada really got into me. Its like a in your face, take it or leave it sort of thing where well, i took it really seriously. I know that there is only about 49 school days left and that scares me really badly. I cannot afford to fall sick or anything and i seriously need to start revision.

Doing assesment only when i feel like it or after i finish my homework is really not right. I have started revision, which gives me a head start from those who still shake their head when i ask if they have started studying, but... heres what i found out these few days. Rarely anybody studied for their PSLE. guess what, i studied really really hard. And i only got an average score. Those who hadnt studied didnt do as well, but they still got scores that were alright. That scares me. It makes me realise that i have to work doubly hard if i wanted good scores because every one around is smarter. And guess what, doubly hard = twice as stress out as i am currently, and i honestly think that this stress that im facing is really beyond my limits.

Im not even pmsing, its not even the time and im already having severe mood swings and everything. Im honestly terrified, the battle has yet been half fought and im already bruised and battered, what is left in me isnt strong enough to face the remaining battles and i dont think i can face it anymore.

I need someone to talk to, to get advices from. Ive considered options like speaking to the teachers about it, and i did try it out by just asking about DSA (which, i dont think im eligible because netball hasnt won some atas national coompetition. and i dont have a freaking leadership position that is recognised.) and guess what, it makes me more stressed out. Ive even considered knocking on the doors of Mr Raja, but i dont think skipping that IJC open house that day would have made a good impression of me on him. Friends? Oh, i dont think so. People telling me they havent studied makes me feel even worse, plus the ones who actually care are facing their very own battles, who am i to burden them? And even hyy who lives 10 stories below isnt being a very good listener. It seems that i become the listener we are tgt, which is really really weird since the only reason why i look for him is because im feeling extremely vexed. argh.

honestly speaking, i dont know if i can do this anymore. And if this is just god damn o levels, what am i going to do about A levels? Should i just forget about it? And hwa chong o hwa chong, why do you have to make yourself so damn exclusive. and i still dont understand why people tell me o levels is for your own good.

2010-05-17T18:38:00.002+08:00

You know what? This year has got to be the fastest passing year ever. I dont even think that its because of the workload, the focus study and all. maybe they were wrong, the earthquake in haiti didnt just caused the earth to roated 0.01 odd seconds faster. Maybe it was like an hour faster or something. But in anycase, whether NASA made an error or not, my point is, I HAVENT GOT ENOUGH TIME! Monday just starts andright after an blink, its friday! And March holiday ends before it begins and Prelims starts before june ends! Its so messed up! No time for revisions, no time to freaking out no time to even sit down, breathe or catch a god damn movie! Im serious. And its not even as if im not productive or ive got no sense of urgency! Frankly speaking, i seem to be the only person on this earth who never stops rushing, im always rushing to school, rushing home, rushing to get a bath, fast forwarding every show i watch, running from places to places, eating at light speed while everyone else is at normal speed! I actually envy people who know how to chew and swallow at normal pace and not be super fast and all like me. I envy aswini who can enjoy life and take slow steps and still make it in time (well, at least some time) but im just rushing everywhere and guess what! Im still not completing everything that i should be. And that sucks.

ugh.

TIME FREEZE PLEASE.

2010-05-16T00:05:00.002+08:00

If people started buying quality goods from america instead of cheap goods from china, america would become better and china will not become as strong. Because, china is strong, its just that they have been compressing their RMB so that people will continue to invest, what does this lead to? More money for china. What happens to the other countries? They lose foreign investors. This ultimately leads to increase in wealth in china while countries like america continuosly deplete their funds for homeless, jobless and the lazy ones who rely on social services without having new income. And mind you. America already have debts 91% of it's GDP.

2010-05-15T21:37:00.003+08:00

I wrote too much, so there arent space for any photos so...

2010-05-07T19:39:00.002+08:00

Hello people.

Havent been blogging in ages cause ive been tormented with heaps of homeworks and was left with little space to breathe from. In fact, the lack of time to eat, think and sleep has left me haggard and feckless (thats the word of the day i wrote for Isk!). However, thursday was delightful cause of the birthday surprised we planned for Hui Yi, who was convinced by Zien than we werent going to make it for her birthday dinner and from what i hear, she was really really upset. Hahahah. Her expression when she found out was not so dramatic though. Had dinner at Pizza hut and we made her do a little bit of her dare in the middle of the dinner. :D She finally completed the dare after dinner although it took a pretty long time. Filmed it down but im still wondering if i should post it up. My voice was really annoying.

However, the dinner really did cheer me up from my nearly lugubrious mood. The jesting around and the literal laugh-out-louds had compensated for my dull week that has been filled with thoughts i should have dismissed long ago. Embarrassing as it was, it was really about how comfortable i felt with them to let myself laugh like nobody's business. We might have had annoyed some patrons, but we sure werent paying enough attention to realise!

"Eh, you know you watch ah, very expensive eh. We had to scrimp and save to get you that watch eh!"

"Ya la, we everyday eat porridge with salt!"

"I worse ah, i only eat salt."

*uncontrollable laughter*

Thanks girl, for unknowingly brightening up my week. Love you girls! (yes, even though i always seem like im scolding you people.)

2010-05-03T21:50:00.002+08:00

The past three days and a half have been awesome. Not very constructive but extremely fun. Friday afternoon was spent with mummy at the movies and it was really nice since we havent done it eons. Saturday was spent sleeping to afternoon and then waking up to watch free movies on Starhub and spending the evening fetching daddy and fighting with my bro, not very fun tho. Sunday was spent finishing up homework and the evening was spent watching ice Kachang Puppy love and eating 369, Ice kachang puppy love is really good! Go watch okay! Monday, woke up at 10, helped ma out with housework, eat, shower and kor gave asw and i a ride to far east. Walked around abit and then went to Somerset 313 and did some window shopping and i bought a top which has officially became favorite shirt number 2. :DDDD Finally talked to asw about the million things that ive been wanting to. It was nice going shopping with her, since we havent done it before. Her intense thoughts before telling me if the top is nice is really intimidating and funny at the same time. And and, her trying out all the berets and beanies and messing up of hair was really aswini-ish. OH AND I CANT STOP THE ENDS OF MY MOUTH FROM GOING UP WHEN I THINK OF THE RED DIAMANTE GLASSES. no aswini, its NOT nice!

so yeah, this weekend has been really awesome. Helps that i borrowed a chinese language book without han yu pin yin that i really enjoy. :D A1 FOR HMT PLEASE!

oh, i really miss the trip i had in thailand that weekend last year. It was one of the best times EVER. i hate the red shirt for ruining thailand. I know it isnt really just the red shirts fault, but they ARE the ones making the news everyday. ugh!

2010-05-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

What is with me and getting disappointed over things which end the way ive predicted? Falling over the same thing again and again is really stupid and you can trust me to do exactly that. Ugh, peixin, why do you have to be so darn stupid!

2010-04-29T20:24:00.002+08:00

kelly clarkson concert on 27th april was awesomeeeeeeeeeeee .

I dont know if you guys know, but i loveeeeee kelly clarkson. So, yeah, i finally got to go to the concert and it was totally worth the wait and the rushing after focus and everything.

Reached about 7.40+ and the concert start at around 8.20. Lights were great and everything and despite expensive tickets, we still werent close enough to see her face and all that. But her powerful vocals were just amazing i tell you. When she sang Breakaway, i went a lil mad.
Oh YAH. My dslr wasnt allowed in... i was so bummed, but i figured i would get it on youtube or sth.

(SHE DID HER HAIR ON STAGE! She was like. this is really hot! Then she tied up her hair.)

Finale. The concert was at its climax then i swear, then it ended. :(
Took an vid on my ipod, included some head bobbing and hair shaking*?

Loved it i swear, on wednesday i just kept singing since you been gone.

ohman, i love her! Gee, i sound like some googoo fangirl. ;DDDD

Oh yeah, it was really worth it even though it wasnt like those chinese concerts with the cool dance moves and all that. 2nd concert and i love it.

2010-04-25T21:02:00.001+08:00

I think i know where i can get my watch! The favorite one from bang kok that cracked! Yay~ I hope i can get a few at a go! *excited*

2010-04-23T21:03:00.001+08:00

I have this.

Now im considering these.

What do you think is best? I need all the help i can get.

Well, Dc because its friggin comfortable for my weirdly shaped feet. And high tops because I love high tops.

2010-04-21T22:43:00.003+08:00

You know how when you are frustrated and you want to sigh because it feels as if all the bad air inside you with dispel as easily as the a sigh. Once you let out a sigh, you feel good, but almost as instantly, it feels as if double the unhappiness has returned within you, leaving you heavy hearted and unhappy.

But that never stops you from sighing again, does it?

Suddenly overwhelmed by all the issues that ive been avoiding for a long time, the realisation of it blowing up scares me and right now i dont know what to do other than to run for cover and hide. But, thats what ive been doing, hiding, avoiding, waiting for it to end. Just as i realise it isnt gonna end, its pretty much too late. With the D word hanging in the air and the tears that we are fighting back, the stress builds up and the muscle tenses. Nobody has got a solution and nobody dares to try. Comforting words can only help to a certain extent and that extent isnt much. perhaps theres something i can do... I just havent thought of it yet...

well, on the brighter side, i didnt have to live with this.

2010-04-19T22:31:00.001+08:00

if you havent been disappointed before, try working really hard on something and then have you dad take one look, shake his head and say, no, too childish.

Totally makes your day.

2010-04-18T21:45:00.003+08:00

Finally went out today. Went orchard with mum, bro and sis and it was really awesome despite the bickering, punching, laughing and sore legs. Bought a dress (totally not me, but refreshing!) and a Nixon ear piece and my ipod case and screen protector after much procrastination. Which in another words mean, i spent a lot of money on my ipod since the dress was less than $30.

Totally lusting over:

2010-04-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i sit down and i think. I think about the past, how simple it was when you know you have just that person and need nothing else, and how sometimes you get greedy and you want more, to realise that by doing that, you lose the only thing that really belonged to you. And many times, i think about the many friends i lost; the ones who i fell out with, the ones that grew apart because we had boyfriends, the ones that changed. And then i think about the ones i have now and i wonder why we dont have as much things to talk about. Have our interest changed? Or do our habits irritate each other. How come our endless topics of conversations have evolved to speaking about what happened that day and nothing else. How did we become people who we know so well and yet the same ones we know nothing of?

I think about the times i used to to have a boyfriend after another, and how i wondered how some girls could stay single for long. Now i wonder why people have boyfriend, love novels don't provide any reasons, seeing my best friends fret over guys make me lose any illusions and knowing that ive been madly in love before doesnt help either. Perhaps thats the best thing that could happen right now. Having a boyfriend would very possibly tear me apart. How would i be able to juggle studies, friends and boyfriends when right now, i cant even cope with friends because i go home straight after school everyday and dont ever hang out anymore? Plus, with the expectations grown sky high, its impossible to feel like i will ever get anyone on par with my expectations.

Watching them fight scares me, fighting text, screaming mornings and even heart to heart talks about running away makes me want to crawl and hide. I dont know what to do and i dont know what to say. I wish i could comfort both of you and be brave at the same time. I try not to show that i care so that you guys wouldnt feel too guilty about any decisions made but hey, i need you both even if i dont show it.

Theres this everlasting knot in my throat that makes me want to give up and cry. I dont know what to do and you not standing up for me doesnt help at all...

2010-04-15T17:38:00.002+08:00

Claudia found out i didnt have an umbrella and would have to walk in the rain home and she loaned me her umbrella. That totally made me very very happy even though i didnt show it. So super sweet of her. :D

2010-04-14T20:48:00.001+08:00

Not your enemy - jesse mccartney.

Sorry for all the times that he lied
And left your heart hangin'
I can't imagine what that feels like

But that was another place
And that was another time
It's not fair to blame me for all his crimes

Just for a minute give me a chance
Let me inside just for a minute
Baby just for a moment
Let me prove I'll do things right

Let down your guard
And show me your colours
Don't fight it anymore
Show me you're with me
Open your arms
I'm not like the others
So don't fight it anymore no
What will it take for me to make you see
I'm not your enemy

Funny on the day that he left
I wasn't even there
It's become a nightmare

But I'll never rest till you give your all
I'll take nothing less till I hear happily ever after
The end

Just for a minute give me a chance
Let me inside just for a minute
Baby just for a moment
Let me prove I'll do things right

Let down your guard
And show me your colours
Don't fight it anymore
Show me you're with me
Open your arms
I'm not like the others
So don't fight it anymore no
What will it take for me to make you see
I'm not your enemy

How do you expect things to get any better
If you keep me on the sideline
Don't you know there's a million things I wanna do
But you gotta meet me halfway you gotta try

Let down your guard
And show me your colours
Don't fight it anymore
Show me you're with me
Open your arms
I'm not like the others
So don't fight it anymore no
What will it take for me to make you see
I'm not your enemy

-----------------------------------------------------

I usually dont blog lyrics. But i heard this on my ipod that day and i was like damn, i need to look up the lyrics.

No need for explanations. No need for moving words.
Though there is a urgent need to get some sleep.

2010-04-13T18:09:00.002+08:00

Its really disheartening when on the same day, everything that could go bad did and when you tried to do something about it, it back fired. Try to take a cold bath cause its so hot outside and yet all the water are hot because the weather is hot. Try wearing your favorite watch to school and it breaks instead. Want to walk in the rain but it drizzling, decide to walk in the shelter than it pours instead. Do a science practical but get results that disappoints your teacher so much you feel like stabbing yourself.

I had a really bad day in school and all i want to do now is cry and dig into Ben and Jerrys, except i cant because being fat would make me cry harder.

2010-04-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

2010-04-10T23:30:00.004+08:00

(Finally used my digital camera, im not used to it and now im really reconsidering getting powershot s90)

Starhub Urban Freestyle.

I dont think i will be able to sum up everything with a sentence. There was so many things that happened!

Met up with Joey in the morning and made our way to City hall, talked so much with her and everything that we missed out in each other's life these months have been filled up. Met with Khai, luqman and Atik and then later saw Zo, met up with Jun Zhi and then made our way to Padang in the rain. It was a terrible time to rain because that meant that the field at Padang would be muddy.

Registered and had lunch. Then we made our way to our stations, since there was like 2 more hours before the start of the race, we went to th esplanade park to camwhore and then we went to check out the obstacle course, freaking cool stuff if you ask me. Where else can you jump over cars? Also helped in deterring tourist from going against racing traffic. Race started and it took quite some time before we saw runners cause we were around 400 m from the finishing line of a 6.5 km race. Saw the first runner and i was super excited, a 10 megawatt smile (quote from serene) came naturally as i cheered him on and despite being probably exhausted, he smiled back! :D Then for the next two hours, i was just there cheering people while being Mosquito feeding. Most of them were really nice people who will answer the cheers with smiles and hi-5s, but there were people who said i was lying when i told thm there were only 2 more obstacles and 300 m. There were a million funny things that happened but im really exhausted so i shall just give it in point form.

People asked if i was paid, and somebody (who was the last few) ask if i was paid for OT
There were runners who pretended to faint in front of me and it took damn long to realise he was pretending to faint, i didnt have a clue what he was doing.
Somebody took my flag
Somebody made me hold his bottle (he didnt come back for it)
Somebody asked me why i didnt have a flag, and then gave me the flag's pole
There was loads of crows and pigeons, and then the runners ran into them, making them fly into my directions and i was ducking them while cheering on the runners.
Mr Cheong Tuck Wai took part and peiyi got so excited, she scared the shit out of the tired, running man.
While Chels was trying to guide people to move to one side outside Starbucks, a women kept telling her oh, i dont want to eat.

Still a lot more but its really much funnier real life.

Waited for the concert till 8.00 + and we helped to clear up. Took pictures with the good looking dragon boaters (we were forced to ah. we were damn shy and declined but serene's bro-in-law made us do it) and then watched the Dance off AND the videos from the run. The sony ericson's new phone camera is really damn good. Went off at around 8.45 and went to have dinner at Raffles city cause i refused to eat the free burger due to the vegan issue. I'll eat meat, but not a burger. Theres is a long string of answers to why i dont want to, i just dont see the need to explain myself. Embarrassed ourself at the mrt station and finally reached woodlands at 10.40. Thanks chels and dad for sending me home! :D

If i had to describe myself as a fruit, i'll be a durian. Prickly to the touch and can drive loads of people away, but once you bother to pry me open and give me a try, the results can be really different for every individuals, some just wants to get rid of me, and some just likes it.

iwannadateaguywhohasthebods,thelooksandthebrains.soundslikeadragonboater.

2010-04-09T17:45:00.002+08:00

Daddy texted the four of us today.

Dear all, xin was asking abt the Kelly Clarkson Live concert on April 27th at 8pm at spore indoor stadium. If you like pa can buy tickets for all fot cat 2 or 3, Good? Ask Hao or Bao to book tickets quickly.

That totally brightened me up from the taxing day i had today. Its a tuesday night so im pretty worried that i will be too tired the next day, but... it should be fine right! Its kelly clarkson! :DDDDD

Ran during HL today and it was tiring! Ran with the super fast people like Serene, Azli and etc. I was pretty much behind them all the time. Serene was so so fast! She was like sprinting throughout. Madmadmad! Farhan stopped twice but was still faster.

Played Netball during recess and it was pretty awesome playing with the girls again. I think all of us havent played in a while and we all had fun uh, though all of us were starving. Oh yeah, and then i managed to score. Hahaha, that, was surprising.

Hope Bao answers me soon enough so that we can book tickets! *excited!*

2010-04-08T19:48:00.003+08:00

Fell face down twice today and it was bad. Frictionless shoes on a smooth standing broad jump mat was one of the things you never want to try. Especially if people are watching. Had to pester the netballers to change shoes with me for freaking long before chelsea finally swop shoes with me and finally beat that shi hui girl who nobody knew who she was. Yay.

Saw people doing sit ups are monster speed. Avi, specifically. He was so fast, you almost needed the special camera they used for Time Warp. And and heard people showing off about their 60 odd sit ups. Oh, and saw two assholes disturb this guy while he did his push up and the guy whacked one of them. And then the asshole kicked the guy. Of course people came to help but it really showed how moronic some supposed smart people are. Honestly, give them some crack if it would help. The ciggs are probably clouding up their head. And yes, you know who you are, shushing me in class isnt gonna make me stop from thinking that your immaturity has got to do with perhaps you being mentally tortured when you were younger, not that its gonna make me pity you.

Anyway the week has gone by really fast and im mentally exhausted from the large amount of information that the teachers are stuffing us with. Doesnt help that we are still behind other classes and the teachers are not gonna let us forget that. People keep asking why i look so tired and i honestly dont know how to answer them. Even my mum is worried. Ahhh, sec 4, sec 4. Its all happening too fast.

2010-04-07T18:48:00.003+08:00

As you all know, wednesday is my vegan day. So, today during recess, i went to queue up at the only stall that sells vege and waited for 8 minutes. After i finally bought my food (egg tofu, long bean and goreng pisang. Oh, and hotdog for asw), I made my way back. The whole way back, people i knew started to stare long and hard into my plate. Jasper even look so hard, i thought he was gonna grab some food out of my plate and do a research on it. I had no idea why they were staring, but i didnt ask them ah. I have never spoken to Jasper, so i wasnt gonna go ask him why he was staring at my food. Then during chemistry, i told Asw about it. Yiting, who is sitting beside Asw said.

"Cause you eat fish mah. You said wednesday is your vegan day right, but you eat fish."

"HUH. ITS BANANA!"

"Oh, it looks like fish!"

and then yadayadayada.

And so you have it, I wasnt eating fish. Im eating BANANA. And yes, i ate it with rice.

So hahahahaha. It's 6.59 p.m. while im typing this and im still vegan. :D The only reason why i blogged this is cause staring at my food is totally unneccesary, next time just ask. :D

oh. and i found out my ruler isnt straight.

I was telling aswini about how you cant even get a straight ruler when you bought it cause its straight and she said.

"Lifes' fucked."

2010-04-01T20:03:00.002+08:00

2010-04-01T19:05:00.002+08:00

hey people.

Yea, so if you realised, mass run was cancelled today, At 1.15, the announcement for the cancellation of Mass Run came, and people started running out of their class and screaming and cheering. Never has the rain brought so much happiness to Riversidians. Announcement for no focus came and there were even more reasons to cheer. People were just jumping and cheering and Jasper brought it to another level by dancing at the corridoor. Best of all it wasnt a April's fool joke. Hahaa. The cheering lasted for 5 whole minutes until the next lesson started. While majority were extremely pleased, there were people who were disappointed and angry since they were ready to kick dust in people's face with their speed. Of course, im sure the Maincommittee members arent very pleased either, personally, im extremely pleased though there is a strong tinge of guilt due to the fact that i know exactly how it suck for the weather to ruin months of preparations. Not to mention the fact that much money went into renting the gantries and probably the venue.

Since Isk and Farl has plans, Sya, Asw and I went to MFT. Didnt really enjoy watching people smoke, hurl insults at each other and get hit by the soccer ball (ok, i enjoyed the last one a bit.), I made plans with HYY and went home to change before ging over to his place to watch Legion. No idea what the movie was about so we ended up watching Shin Chan, and you may laugh, but that was seriously the first time i watched Shin Chan. Went to walk Xiaobai (thats his dog.) and then went home to hear the pranks my bro pulled on the teachers. Honestly, those were hands down better than the ones we pulled on our too-strict teachers. Our pranks consisted of blocking the front door with the movable lockers and placing the squishy rat in Ms wu's pencil case. Uh yeah.

So yeah, that sums up April's Fools day. Cant believe i missed the Riz low prank.

2010-03-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

Bet tumblr doesnt have this.

2010-03-28T19:57:00.004+08:00

Hello hello.

Saturday was pretty awesome cause i finally went out with priscilla and watched whip it. Totally awesome movie if you ask me. Its very ellen page uh, the indie movie sorta thing. Think Juno and nick and norah infiite playlist. Went to get Nabil and Chelsea's bday present. Walked around and then went off to meet Nabil, Lay Ping and Hazel. After they were done with everything they had to do, we went to rosewood.

Party was pretty normal. Like the usual bbq and stuff. But all the peeps were there. Be it Kl peeps or my favorite sec3 kiddos (oh comeon, you are younger.) Helped the guys with the bbq-ing and serene and peiyi were having loads of fun laughing at my sarcasm, again. Oh and shaan was uber slow and took me for serious when i said go and soak the hotdog, then somebody said soak where and i said in the sand. And shaan went "huh, serious?" We all laughed at him, then then after we were done laughing, we said the same thing and he bought it again. hi-la-ri-ous. Uh, hazel was going on and on about her non existant muscles, layping and nabil were helping out. Basically kl peeps and sec 3 peeps were helping out. then i think we ate, cut cake and then when chelsea and serene went to see a doc, we played murderer and farhan, hazel, lay ping were singing to justin bieber.

Saw the dual LCD screen camera for the first time ytd and im pretty darn impressed. The flash was freaking awesome. And the 12 mega pixel meant that it has more mega pixel then my EOS 450D. Plus at only 1/3 of the price. Hmmm.

anyways.

shaan, khai and meh once again proved their gentlemanly-ness. too many to elaborate uh. but. amir, you have no freaking reasons to argue with me on this issue. Ive seen enough rude guys to point out a gentleman when i see one. :D

Cause everyone only cares how much they get out of it, they forget to think how much the person has already given.

2010-03-27T09:25:00.002+08:00

I had been looking forward to saturday the whole week cause i thought it would be a getaway from the crazy hours of school and all that. Hahaa, ended up being sick and missed two days of school so today, saturday ended up to be a reward for getting better instead.

I hope i didnt miss out much in school, it would suck to know that ms wong had went ahead with 2 chapters, yet again. Spent the last two days watching loads of Glee, which i have finished. :D And thinking about why im whining so much about focus when usually, if we have netball/ meeting, it would end later then the focus time. Hmm, its really about what you like huh? I mean, when we have CCA and all, which most of us like, you dont see us complaining about having to go home late and not being able to finish up homework. But once focus start, people start whining about having no time to study/ do homework/ revise. Its all about time management people. Plan your time. Dont spent 2 precious hours looking at facebook hoping somebody likes your comment or replies your comments. Or tweeting every 5 minutes cause you think that's the way you'll be the next xiaxue. IT DOESNT HAPPEN LIKE THAT. If you actually use your time wisely, you're be able to finish your a math, e math, chemistry homework and 59 physics MCQ from that 1001 MCQ book after you come home from Focus. And instead of hanging around in school not knowing what to do, go home and do your homework and sleep at 11 instead of 4, then nodding off in school and then saying its because you had to do your homework. Like hello? The other 41 of us had the same number of homework and we did it, submit it and didnt nod off in school. You happen to be the only one not submitting your homework AND nodding off in class. Ho. The problem really lies with YOU.

2010-03-25T20:34:00.003+08:00

Oh yes, and my mum texted me this the other day.

Can change your Vegan day to Wednesday? Start once a month.

And since i was already dreading Vegan day, i decided to change in to Wednesday. Though i'll miss out on the fried food, it will probably save me from the complaints of my siblings who would love to have their daily meals with meat. And, mummy wouldnt have such a hard time trying to cook since i cant eat seafood and now im a one vegan on wednesday. Hoho.

And yes, im supposed to study but my mind isnt really working with the 5 different medications i just consumed. argh.

2010-03-25T20:14:00.002+08:00

Believe it or not, im freaking excited about saturday, be it going out with priscilla or going over to celebrate someone's birthday. Almost everyone i love it there. That includes Nabil

The person who is better at a language is the one who uses the least number of words to get the point across.

2010-03-25T19:02:00.002+08:00

Hello you.

im the most disorientated kid around currently.

Woke up this morning with a bad throat and flu and cough and headache and slight fever. Didnt help that i kept waking up in the middle of the night to blow my nose. Thank god sis is at camp so i wouldnt wake up with my nose blowing and i wouldnt pass my germs to her.

Didnt make it to school and that sucked cause thursday got loads of lessons and i really needed to know everything! So went to 768 for Doctor and i felt super uncomfortable cause of my throat and my nose and i just didnt want to speak at all! The doctor was asking me stuff and since i was in a daze, i didnt know what he was saying at all. My bro was sick too so we both saw the doc. Went to eat porridge later on and it was really good cause it didnt hurt my throat that much. All the time, i was thinking about what i missed out in school and how badly i wanted to go for the SC meeting later on.

Went home, watched more Glee, then went to sleep. Woke up and went to CC cause i thought th meeting was gonna be there, but it wasnt. So i went home, changed and went back to school, feeling dizzy the whole time. Meeting was not what i expected. I forgot alot of things i wanted to say to my dearest SC members and when i spoke, they all look damn concern cause my voice sounded weak ah. Nabil even went all the way to me to ask if i was okay, and marcus the boy with no voice also asked me if i was okay. Jia Qi said " you sick ah? Why you always sick ah?" and i wanted to box him. (As far as i know, Jia Qi is the only person who uses box instead of punch.)

anyways.
please dont say "wah, you so lucky, no need go school." Being too smart for school is called lucky, being too sick for school isnt.

2010-03-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

Im going VEGAN on MONDAYS AND FRIDAYS.
Im not even kidding about it.

2010-03-19T21:23:00.002+08:00

Beth should totally choose the reporter. Keith right, thats his name?

3 reasons why? Easy peasy.

He's hot. Good body, good sense of humour.
He's a klutz as well. And, face it, so is beth. Come on, you always have to have something in common with your partner. The other three, totally fall short of it.
Compare him with the other 4. He wins hands down. Firstly, he doesnt take off his clothes in a cafe and isnt narcassistic. I dont even think i need to go on.

And this brings me to the issue on what i want in my partner.

A sense of humour. Would definately come in handy to catch my attention in the first place.
Bagful of romance, im all in for old fashion love. Total sucker for love letters. Shhh~ and i secretly wish for those events koreans always plans for their girlfriends.
A kind heart. You really cant have a good boyfriend who has a terrible heart. Plus, im all in for charity and saving gaia. Plus. A guy with a bad heart would probably beat me.

What would you want you in your boyfriend?

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2010-03-19T20:07:00.006+08:00

Hello you.

Kl was awesome. The kids were adorable, the people were awesome (except for the usual spoilt brats that took more food they could eat and left almost nothing for others.) and the nights were great.

The bus ride was long as usual but things changed once we reached pure life, the kids watched as curiously as we eyed them. But then we kinda warmed up once we played the games ah. I swear i felt like a 60 year old when we were playing ice and water with them. They are so fast and aggressive that when ranjita came after me with her very very intense look, i ran away so fast and then felt down. I stood up and then fell again. Haaaah. Didnt spend much time there on the first day. Checked into the hotel and took continuous shots with isk, farl, wusha, amirah. Then went to eat at the place across the hotel and then went back to shower and stuff. Went to shaan and albert's room with the ever changing password that i didnt know of and took more continuous shots with i think 8 other people (albert, shaan, serene, peiyi, amir, khairul, syarif). It was mega hilarious when everyone didnt know what to do and started waving their hands around. H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S. Went to sleep at peiyi's room cause somebody had to go to aliff's room to party and left syariff and peiyi roommate-less and i wasnt gonna let them get into trouble because they are alone together in one room. Terrible night cause all three of us didnt want the other two to not have space. funneh.

breakfast at hotel and then went to pure life. Had drawing competition. Both buddy that i helped won. Well, one of them won because i drew the entire thing. The other made me draw fish and turtle and then he copied it. And, i couldnt help but give in when he asked me to colour his sea for him. But he came up with the idea la. Had lessons in the station masters style afterwards. And one of the many things that touched me was how the kids really appreciate the things they received, even though it wasnt expensive. More ice breakers, cheers and games. Lunched and then had our group's lesson. Wasnt exactly awesome so had charades by another group. Oh yes, they gave out the colour pencils and crayons that the students used before for the prizes but the students still liked it so much. I thought that was really nice.

Day ended soon after a game of soccer for the guys and dance for the girls. Didnt want to dance so i joined the guys for soccer. Stopped when albert the super tall guy jumped backwards and hit me at my mouth with his shoulder. It was quite funny actually. But it hurt. So i decided to stop the bleeding and then take photo of the activities. Bright sun and green sun made the pictures turn out great. That day, i realised that they kids werent really rowdy because they want to. But really because thats the only way they are gonna get the attention they are deprived of and whatever else they want. Night at the hotel was somemore fun ah. Was with serene, peiyi, amir, syariff, khairul. Serene decided to try out flying and we were watching space balls. It was actually really retarded but none of us minded. No one was really paying attention to the tv anyways.

breakfast at hotel, then went to pure life again. Taught most of the kids stuff and it was damn awesome seeing them appreciate and learning things that their teachers gave up teaching. Oh yeah, and seeing them in their competitive streak was super cute. Not to mention finger counting in tamil at machine gun speed and sweet counting. Day was well spent and ended with giving contacts and taking photos. I should mention that if you want to take photos, YOU SHOULD FREAKING BRING YOUR OWN CAMERA. Yes. i think point would be taken. Im not your personal photographer. If you ask then why do i take photos, its because i LIKE IT. AND I DONT LIKE YOU ORDERING ME TO TAKE YOUR PHOTOS BECAUSE YOU WANT IT. Did you think about what i want? damnit. Yes, esp you who i dont even know other then your name. Hugged this kid and then left. The teachers were all screaming at us to leave already. I secretly think they hated doing that but had to do that or else we wouldnt leave. Went to Mega Mall afterwards and spent 5 - 8 minutes trying to settle how dinner money should be given. Didnt help that this girl were practically screaming at me. Hmm, maybe i shouldnt have given her the money. Spent with with amir, khai, sya, serene, peiyi and it was damn awesome. Dinner at popeye and then went shopping. It was funny how the guys kept buying the same things. And it was pretty embarrassing when my bag kept setting off the alarms at shops. Syariff put his hands up when the alarm went off. Hahaha. Finally settled that issue when Zara's staff helped us deactivate it.

AMIR, KHAIRUL, SYARIFF!
thanks for being such gentlemans! It was really awesome la, especially since i only got to know amir and khairul over these 4 days. Like how i told Serene and Peiyi, i never thought we would be close friends or anything. Always assumed we would only remain as schoolmates and stuff. Hahaha. And Amir, dont worry, didnt take any offense to any netball jokes made. Although, i must say... WE GOT IT ON FILM. :DD And khairul! I bet you're happy you can msg your girlfr now. :D AND SYARIFPUDDING. Your Bestfriends jokes are really not funny anymore. :D

PEIYI, SERENE!
Thank you for always making sure im not left behind and etc. And i love speaking chinese with you guys. And and, its goooooooood to know that you guys think th same way as i do. Heehee.
Peiyi! Hohoho, the you speak in chinese, i reply in english thing is pretty darn cool. Maybe we should rotate as well. "why i got 2 such interesting friends ah?'"
Serene! Stop trying to fly! Hahahah, i bet khairul and amir went to sleep feeling as if their bed is jumping! And and. "I think they ran out of ideas."

<3

2010-03-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

Shouldnt have had bothered me but it did.
so the words are ringing in my head.
argh, its damn annoying.

oh yes, did i mention, on the night of sports carnival, i went to sleep and i kept hearing ms milhan screaming through the walkie talkie. Talk about hang overs.

Anyways, bought my bagpack FINALLY. i like it :D
tagger for the win. :D

2010-03-14T12:34:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHO BOUGHT HER CONVERSE HIGH CUTS?

$65.90 ALL PAID FROM MY OWN SAVINGS. :D

IM SUPER PROUD OF MYSELF.

Now i need to think about how to ask my sis for the dslr.

2010-03-13T16:20:00.004+08:00

Sports carnival 2010.

Personally, i think its better than last year. Wet weather programme was carried out immediately when the skies didnt hold it back 3 hours longer. My legs lasted longer and didnt start hurting as bad till eleven. Still loads of screaming but from what i hear, the students didnt know about them.

Major Screw ups: 0
teacher's involvement in carrying out sports carnival: 0
Students having issues with all the usual: 1.
Major injury: 1
Break downs: 3
Times i flared up: 3

Honestly, these were alot better than last year. Sure there was rain, but we knew what to do. Prayers in the morning was answered when the skies were cloudy and there was a sure sign of rain and then later, the skies cleared. Opening ceremony was very well done. Core games was well done. Transition was well done. Mass game was pretty well done. Closing ceremony was well done. So what do i ask for now? Nothing much other than riversidians to stop complaining and start appreciating.

Sports carnival took 5 months of planning and took away precious hours of sleep. On top of just planning on holidays, we were involved in coordination and training even during the common test periods. The maincomms missed about 40 lunches and had an average of 2 meals a day for the past 5 months. 83% of the Maincomms were new and have no idea what sports carnival planning was about before they joined SCMC 2010 and were trained from Scratch. The maincomms went through interviews but we did not pick th top people. We strongly believe in polishing unpolished gems. And what about the fact that sports carnival is planned and conducted by teachers in other schools? Not enough? Then lets talk figures, sports carnival 2010 took $2800++ and we erected tentages even though we could have just asked students to sit at the corridoors.

Every year, i hear complains about lousy referees. Do you know that these referees sacrificed their saturdays while most of you were sleeping in? Do you know that we had to sieve through 187 referees forms to pick out these referees? And on top of that, if students had the discipline to abide every rule of the game, is there a need for referees? I'll dare say that 98% of students did not read the rules and regulations before sports carnival. On 11th march, i still had students asking me what was Frisla. Maincomms are not R&R dictionaries. Students have the responsibilities to read the R&R and read the schedule.

I hear students telling me the maincomm sucks. So you think you can do better? Then please sign up for the interview next year instead of sitting around saying that you can just wear our shirt and conduct a better sports carnival. If your team had an walkover, do not blame the maincomms. You should have read the schedule we gave out an month ago and followed it. Instead of whinning and raising your fist, ask yourself if you did the things you were supposed to do. Your team had to play handicap? Then ask yourself why your team players are not in the proper attire or are absent.

SCMC 2010 members stayed overnight on 11th march. Upon hearing that, students will say "Wahlau, so good..". But we did not stay overnight to have fun. We missed our lunch and some of us did not even have recess. But did we complain? No. We were on our knees under the 3 pm sun, taping the courts and conducting the opening ceremony rehearsal that somebody actually said "Chey" to. We tied every red and white tape and raffia string to the poles used for frisla and handball. We moved every single table, chairs, whiteboard that you see at the indoor sports hall, hall, parade square, field, basketball court, quadrangle. The badminton pole you see at the frisla court, we moved in from the hall to the quadrangle by the stairs. We put up with the sacarstic remarks from Auntie Mary and you guys. We had dinner only after we completed taping the courts and moving the things. We had opening ceremony rehearsal at 11.30 and we showered at 1.30 a.m. We slept at 2.30 and woke up at 4.40. That what we had to do while you guys went home, showered and sleep. Some of us still had homework to do and files to complete. Did we complain? No. Then why are you guys complaining? Its so unjustified. But are we complaining? No! You were not even the one who had to put up with the screaming by the t-i-c. Not the one who had to put up with the pain in your leg and continue to run to the teacher who is demanding you to go to a venue three blocks away. So who are you to complain?

Every single maincomm sacrificed 5 months to help out. On 12th march, there was at least 8 maincomms who were injured. Jia yin sprained her leg during a softball match on 11th march, a badminton pole fell on Preethika on 11th march and she hurt her leg, Aisha had a ankle injury, hazel had an knee injury, Marcus had muscle strains, Shanjif had 6 muscle cramps, Chelsea hurt her eye during the course of duty and had a sprained ankle, Michelle is still recovering from an torn ligament and i was having a flu and my ankle was hurting. But when i asked if anyone was not feeling well or injured, none of them said they were. Why? Because they didnt want to miss out on helping or executing SC 2010. Ms milhan asked us if we wanted to cancel SC2010 and we said no. Why? Not because we didnt want to waste our efforts, but everybody replied saying we didnt want to disappoint the students. Every single one of us.

We are not even asking you to say thank you. We are just asking for you to stop complaining. If even the principal appreciates our efforts, why dont you?

Thank you to all referees who helped out.
Thank you to Amir, Khairul, Syariff for helping out for final prep. Sorry to those names i left out!~

2010-03-10T18:04:00.004+08:00

Aizal plays football. I play netball.
We always used to have these long debates on why our sports is more interesting than the other.
He never really tried out netball, i never really tried out football except once during P.E where i then hurt my waist. Dont ask. it involved a girl kicking a ball to my back and me getting overexcited about scoring. Hurhur. And tho only other time we had anything to do with football together was that one time where i watched him play football at mft and it didnt end up too well.

Then we broke up. And for the longest time, i avoided anything to do with football. From tv shows to going to MFT.

Until, i became closer friends with Farlee and rest, i went to MFT more often and then watched people play football. It was also really when i started to understand aizal's love for it and many other people's reason for loving the game. Quoted from Iskandar, Football is enlightening, when you manage to strategically tackle the ball away from another player and dribble it towards the goalpost and then successfully score a goal, the adrenaline that rushes through you is similar of that when you successfully get the ball from the center to the GS/GA to score it in the net in netball. Simply said in the most easily understood way, its shiok ah.

Football is also the thing that bonds kausala together. Friday afternoons after focus, where we complain about the sun but watch the guys play football anyway. Under block impromtu football games where we team up to play against iskandar's neighbours and cheering each other because we came up with new tricks by ourself. Playing soccer because we are upset, playing soccer cause we like it, playing soccer cause thats what we do.

Football means my past and it really also means a hell lot to me on my present.
doesnt matter if its hot or not.

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